“I want to learn to live from the heart.” Those were the words I wrote in my journal as I sat at the Dubai airport in October 2022. I had dreams, visions, illusions and delusions about everything that was to come, sitting there at the airport, half way to my new reality. I was midway between Sweden, the home country I was leaving indefinitely, and South Africa. Today, I can see how everything I initially thought this trip would entail was turned upside down in order to make space. I needed to make space for and align myself to, the powerful intention: to live through the heart. But what does it mean?
For me, it has taken me on a journey where I have given myself permission to explore and experience life from my heart space. With questions like “What would bring me most joy?” “Where do I shine and glow the most?” and “What do I need to feel both challenged and safe enough to be seen?” guiding me, living from the heart has shifted my life so it feels almost like I am living in a new reality. A reality where I am apparently a creative, a community builder and an entrepreneur guided by intuition and spirit.
What happens when we give ourselves permission to live and create a life on our own premisses?
The summer of 2022, I was just about to finish my bachelor degree, at home in Sweden. At the time, the choices that laid ahead of me was either more studies or applying for a job within my field. Huge opportunities and probably what would have been a great life, but the idea of it didn’t bring me joy. It didn’t make my soul sing and brain tick. Was this what life was building up to? Or was perhaps the sense of restlessness and desire for something else, a signal that I was at a cross rode in life?
I had a choice to make. Somewhere, deep within, I think I could almost sense the gravity of the choice I was giving myself. It wasn’t a matter of choosing where in the world I wanted to live, or what job I could apply for. It was the profound desire to do what I came here to earth to do. My purpose, whatever it may be.
A different lifestyle tailored to me. When the idea of moving to South Africa came to me, my whole being responded. The bare idea gave me such joy and energy, I knew I had to go!
A few months later, I was standing in South Africa and nothing was ever the same again. I had asked to learn to live through the heart and the Universe was schooling me hard. It started a process that allowed me to throw out the mold that I had subconsciously built my life around, ideas of who I was supposed to be and do.
The process of becoming is unraveling. I still, to this day, have no idea of what the result is supposed to look like. But the gratification i feel every day I wake up is real. It has turned everything I thought I knew about who I was, upside down. One and a half year in and I am living my most creative life, feeling the threads underneath my dreams as I weave.
Perhaps that is what living from the heart truly means, to dare to follow your intuition and desire, that deep inner knowing within, even when you don’t have a logical explanation for it or a plan. Or even a vision.
I am slowly starting to believe that what the heart wants is what is already meant for me, therefore, if I start doing – it will happen. It might sound kookoo but my life lately is a living testimony to this.
My hope is that through sharing these experiences and inner processes with you, perhaps it will mirror you in your journey too.
Let’s find our own ways of doing life! You came here with a purpose, we all did. Perhaps, if you allowed more space for the to take shape in your life, rather than defining the desired outcome, you will find that you have already started walking on your path.
Living a purposeful life. Living through the heart.